Scraps Of Our Life

What a day we had! My morph scan was booked for 11:20am, Kenneth called me from work @ 10am to tell me that his boss wouldn’t let him leave work to come to the appointment  we were both so sad and annoyed. I really felt bad for him as I knew how I would feel if the tables were turned . Poor darling kept saying how sorry he was, but I kept telling him it wasn’t his fault and that he had nothing to say sorry for. Then I realized that I would need someone to come with me to watch Chausiku while I had the scan. Kenneth suggested that I collect Kaylah from school, so I rushed to get myself and Chausiku ready and then I went to Kaylah’s school to pull her out for the rest of the day. I can tell you, it’s not easy walking any distance with a full bladder! When we get to the hospital I realize that my ‘pregnesia’ has bitten me once again and I’ve left the OB’s refferal letter on the front of the fridge. Bless Kaylah, she raced back home to collect it for me . The sonographer was wonderful, he let Kaylah and Chausiku come into the scanning room with me so that they weren’t alone in the waiting room. As you can imagine, Kaylah was amazed at watching bub on the screen. Technology is incredible! We got to see this little baby’s lips, nose, nostrils, and cheeks. I could see the little mouth opening and closing, it was so awesome. Bub was holding his/her little hands together and we watched him/her moving the little fingers. He/she was laying with his/her ankles crossed and the sonographer took a cute picture of the little feet for us to take home to show Kenneth. He also gave us a picture of the hands and a profile picture of the head. He showed us absolutely EVERYTHING! We watched the blood pumping from the heart for quite a while to make sure everything was working as it should. Then he showed me our baby’s little ‘bits’ and told us what I am cooking  but I’m not going to tell you yet, so you have to be patient and keep guessing.

He said that the only things he was concerned about it that the baby seems to be smaller than he/she should be, and there’s an issue with the placenta. He wouldn’t go into details about the placenta, but said that my OB would tell me more at my next appointment. So we have to wait until next week to find out more. I’m refusing to worry about it, because no matter what happens there is absolutely NO way that I would ever terminate, NO way! I’m sorry if I offend anyone, but I am totally against abortion, no matter what the reason. It’s one of the things in life that messes with my head and heart the most. I’ll go to my grave never understanding how anyone could do that. It’s never an answer to the situation.

Sorry to get a bit off track there.

Anyway, when we got home I sent Kenneth an sms to tell him that I couldn’t possibly tell him what I’m cooking until he got home. He phoned during his lunch break to plead with me to tell him, so I caved and told him. I just felt so bad that he’d missed out. Of course we are both very excited, and I am finally starting to feel that this is really happening, especially after watching this dear little miracle moving around on the screen. It’s rather overwhelming to already be so in love with someone, and to realize that you’re finally exactly where you want to be in life. Thank you God!

I hope you’re all doing really well. Thanks so much for reading our exciting news and sharing this journey with us. I’m hoping to add some photo’s here soon, you’ll all be amazed at how much Chausiku has grown! I love that little girl so much! My heart just melts over my family. I am so blessed.